I started blogging anonymously to write love letters to Paris. My blogs were about a dream for me and Chris that I never really expected to become a reality. Even the different sort of reality we are now living. My blogs were my escape. Many blogs and many years later, everything has changed. London is now home. Paris is still our dream, though that too is different. Some days I feel at peace with the decisions that have brought us to London; other days I long for our annual, highly anticipated trips to Paris. When it felt like Paris was all we had. I miss the intensity of loving Paris so much. London has changed me and Chris and made both our worlds much larger. London has given me an opportunity to live a big, scary and at times unrelenting life. I spend 90% of my time outside of my comfort zone, and 10% of my time in my bed watching Netflix and eating Marks & Spencer ready-meals. It's the only way I can cope with the exhilarating and exhausting beast that is